Dearest Bubba,
I guess the first thing i should do is apologise for the length of time it has taken me to produce this next post!
My new years resolution (or one of them) was to spend more time and effort completing this.
There are quite a few reasons why i gave up, the main one was that i am still not pregnant. It kills me every time to say it out loud or in my head and it seems for the moment that i am going to have to try to put it out of my mind. That's the advice that everyone keeps giving me, but its soooo hard. All i keep thinking about is 'when i get pregnant' and i keep saying to daddy ' when we have a baby' but its just like one of those dreams you want to achieve that you know is never going to happen but you daydream about it all the same.
I saw a gueny - i don't have a clue how to spell it! - and she said i was to fat (at size 14-16) to have a baby. And whilst i understand that being overweight can cause poly cystic ovaries she was in complete fairness an utter bitch! Even grumps (grandad) thought she was unfair with everything she said. in short she mad me feel like i was a teenager who couldn't be bothered to get a job and just have a baby and live of benefits for the rest of my life. I guess it didn't help that i went straight from my job (as assistant manager in a sports store) which meant i was wearing a tracksuit, but i felt she didn't even take a chance to get to know me! so i am going to ring the doctor and ask to see someone a bit more compassionate.
I am also going to take the bull by the horns and try this 'Dukan Diet' that everyone is raving about! I'm day three in and its not going to bad. i have decided that until i do get pregnant and can share the experiences of that i will share with you the experiences of extreme dieting!
Tomorrow will be my first post about the Dukan Diet and the changes it has in my life and side effects that people probably don't tell you about.
Until tomorrow,
All my love
Always and Forever
Mummy xxx
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