Results!!

Dearest Bubba,

This past week has been a bit harder than most!

On Wednesday I had my scan like I mentioned in my last post. The radiographer at the time confirmed that I have cysts or follicles on my ovaries. To start with it relieved me a little, as at least now I knew why I hadn't fallen pregnant yet. A bit later when I had to tell Daddy, thats when I started to cry.

Polycystic ovaries doesn't mean that I will never be able to have children, it just means that for most people it can be difficult. I guess I cried because I have finally taken this huge decision to put everything on hold and to focus on you, and now I have to wait. I guess what annoys me even more, is that there are so many parents in the world that dont appreciate the gift of a child and here I am waiting and praying that you will come to me because I have so much love to give.

Me and Daddy are not going to stop trying and we have taken feedback from the doctor about things that might help us. Making sure that we eat healthy and get regular exercise. Your Nana has also said to maybe not think about it so much. There is a saying that 'a watched kettle never boils' and I guess Nana means that all the while I am taking tests and monitoring my cycles, I am never going to fall pregnant.

So we are going to do both! I am going to eat healthy and exercise regularly, but moderately, and I am going to stop 'clock watching'!

Now all I need are distractions to stop me thinking of you all the time. This week should be ok - I have plenty of cinema trips and loads to do at work. Also this weekend I am travelling to Oxford to see my friend from playschool, Jemma and from there I am going to Essex to see my friend Becka, who has a gorgeous girl called Lily.

After that I have no idea what to do!

I really look forward to when you get here! No pressure!

All my love,
       Always and Frever
                     Mummy xxx