Concerned?

Dearest Friends,

Lately I have obviously been feeling more emotional than usual and im under the impression that this is leading to two things:

1. Is that people don't want to talk to me in case I get upset or they don't feel they can share good news with me incase it makes me feel even worse.

2. Is that they are using my emotional time to hide what they are going through instead of being honest with me.

So if I make you feel like you can't talk to me then I apologise from the bottom of my heart.
However if you love me like you all say you do stop treading on egg shells around me!
Be honest with me, don't let things build up just say - You know if I am upset with you I tell you, even if its not what you want to hear. Stop treating me differently.

I need friends and family I can have a laugh with and still enjoy myself. It doesn't matter how much I want a baby, I still want my life too. And im not going to slum around the house with make-up running down my face looking for pity.

So I cry sometimes because its challenging! Put your arms around me and hug me until I laugh at myself for being so silly. Laugh with me!

There really is no need to be concerned, im not dying! I will get what I want in the end I always do!

Real friends are honest, even when you don't like to hear it. Real friends don't get jealous when you have good news! Real friends love you no natter what and appreciate everything you do no matter what. Lets be real friends?

I really appreciate the concern from everyone but I AM FINE!  please believe me and stop looking at me with sad eyes.

I love you all so much, and I know you are always there for me.

All my love,
           always and forever,
                               C  x x x